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[Feb. 2nd, 2005|06:09 pm]
Ever since the end of first semester i've been slacking off. I feel depressed and just can't seem to get motivated enough to finish any of my homework. I know, I know..it's only the 2nd week of second semester..but yeah. anywho..i was looking at this old jackass video Lauren, Gaby, Averil, Elena and I all did. God do I ever miss Elena. I choose to pretend like i forgot about her but I just haven't. I still love her more than I ever did. Is it weird to still truly care about someone who you haven't seen or spoken with for 6 months? In these two years of meeting new people..and having new friends..i don't think i've ever met someone who has come even close to Elena personality wise. I miss our conversations about every little thing and talking with her at 2 in the morning when I was scared to fall asleep. I miss how concerned she was about me when something went wrong. I miss laughing with her...and just her funiness. I miss crying with her..Why does it have to be Elena who I've never stoped missing? I can't look at her pictures with me..they make me want to cry. Thanks for making me realize I need to act quick and stop feeling sorry for my stupid self. Oh oh. Elena is 16. This is weird. We promised eachother that when we turned 16 we'd buy a car together....looks like that's never gunna happen. Shit..I should have called her on her birthday. That would have been so fucking awkward though.

[User Picture]From: jrgradecool
2005-02-03 09:38 am (UTC)
YOu can still call her Annz. YOu should't try to forget her, that will only make you more sad and will tarnish the memory of her. You should call her up and sing her "happy birthday." Don't give up with school, we're all here to help you.
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[User Picture]From: h_b_loveme
2005-02-04 10:48 pm (UTC)
eh i think its better her being just a memory stays that way..but its so fucking hard sometimes cause all i want to do is call her up and hold her for ever(in an unsexual way) but im afraid of rejection..and weve drifted apart far too much..and im so regretful.
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[User Picture]From: jrgradecool
2005-02-05 01:07 pm (UTC)
*Hugs* It sucks when someone you care about and have been friends with for many years, just leaves you like that. She still misses you.
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